Sunday, June 20, 2010
i scrolled through my fb home page updates and as i look at the many many updates from my church friends about how awesome god is , and how passionate they are about him now, somehow, i feel so left out .
because of school and exams, i couldn't make it for confirmation camp. believe me when i say that i'm so happy and encouraged that they are so fired up for you,lord! but there's this wistful part in me which is kinda envious for how they feeling right now, in other words, a spiritual high.
someone got baptise today , lord.
i've been praying for this person.
please do continue watching over and protecting him,lord.
you told me yesterday, o father, that as long as they are baptise in you
it doesn't matter what they are,
men or women, gentile or jew,
we're all the same, one body in you ,lord
so, take away all prejudices and negative mindset about how i'm feeling about it all , lord.
blessed be your name.
♥Sunday, June 20, 2010
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
yes , i've fallen sick.
skipped school today because i was feeling horrible. only to find out that on the day that i miss class, there's class assignment to hand up . ah!! so frustrating . i've even skipped classes back in JC or secondary school just for fun and it was okay . but now... skipping one day of lesson due to VALID reasons could even land me in trouble because now i'm feeling lost as to what to do for class assignment.
yes, i'm grouchy, whiny and about to throw tantrums now.
i need you.
but you're not here ):
♥Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Sunday, June 13, 2010
To : my dearest bestie (:
Love is like a circus. it is beautiful, magical yet terrifying at the same time. sometimes, accidents are inevitable and people will get hurt or even die during performance, but it doesn't lessen the beauty of the show or the circus.
therefore, bestie. we've all been hurt one way or another. it's sad, but inevitable. how different people eventually turn out to be in lives depends on how we face such hurt. some give up , thinking that they'll be better off without love. some grow consistently sad and defensive, not allowing love to come in lest they get hurt all over again. yet there are also those who end up falling deeply in love and everyday is a miracle for them because they held on with optimism, that someday love will find them and they learn from past experiences, maturing and growing each day.
so bestie, i know that this year hasn't been a good year for you . sometimes, you have no idea what god is trying to do , whether he's making a huge joke out of all this and you start to lose faith in love. but honey , know that he makes everything happen for a reason , yes ?
you're never alone. there are people who are in the same boat as you too . who are struggling along their journey and some who are even worst off. always know that you're loved by so many many other people around you and who would be so sad if you continue feeling down. i'm also struggling in that aspect honey . i dont know where i stand, what's going on, what's going to happen. i have so many many questions in my head too. but, i wish that the both of us can continue praying hard and perservering. when i feel like giving up or at the brink of losing my faith, i know tha you'll always be there for me to turn to , becuase you've known how it feels like. likewise, i'll always be here for you , darling .
i'll always be praying for you. that god will give you a peaceful and courageous heart to maintain and improve the faith you have in both him and love. and when you've found that faith , i'm confident that love will come knocking on your door (:
with love,
your bestie <3
♥Sunday, June 13, 2010
