Sunday, September 27, 2009
this is just a glimpse of our photos taken last friday to celebrate darling fanghan's birthday! these four...... i can never imagine life without them. they help me to take time off my busy life and just breathe. these are the rare few.... i have no facades with.
this week was crazy. i'm still feeling lost.
areyouokay?
♥Sunday, September 27, 2009
Monday, September 21, 2009
bestie shared her prayer with me ! praise god for this darling girl he's placed into my life!<3
BESTIE !!!!!(: says:
ahahahahas! tis is random bt let's pray hon,
dear Lord, i thank you for all your blessings and for being here with us every single day of our lifes. thank you Lord for one another that no matter how bad things go, we know that there is always one another to lie on. Lord we pray thee that you will heal our broken hearts Lord and we would like to entrust our lifes into your mighty hands Lord for we
Know that things are not working out now because you have someone else better in mind for us Lord God and we know that you will always have our best interest at heart and know who will be the best fit for us. Lord God, we pray thee that you will send these people into our lives Lord God almighty, not so they can date us right away, as we acknowledge the importance of starting out as friends first
and slowly progressing from there. Pray that they can be a friend to us sooner and help us to slowly take away the pain in our hearts with their friendly love and concern. If these people are already in our lives, Lord God I pray thee that you will draw us closer together and become friends in the truest form and be able to turn to one another, rely on one another n understand one another.
Lord God, we pray that you will hear our prayers dear Lord God almighty, for your word promises that if we ask, it’ll be given onto us. We thank you for your loving kindness and believe you have a bright future and life planned ahead for us. Help us to live in this knowledge n hope so we won’t grow disheartened and be so sorrowful still. In Jesus name we pray and give thanks, amen.
♥Monday, September 21, 2009
Sunday, September 20, 2009
went for mass today. it mentioned something about if things didn't go my way, it means that i did not pray properly for it. If i prayed and it still does not go how i want it to go, it means that i prayed for the wrong thing because it's for my own desires and not god's will.
this sentence struck me.
bestie and i have been feeling really down of late.
and i really wanna help her?
but i mean seriously, how do you cheer someone up if i don't even feel cheerful isn't it ?
the common things that people say about me is : oh ! claudia's so cheerful and bubbly!
little do they know the truth.
i'm kinda back to the habit of blogging. mainly, because i no longer know how to express myself in front of people and i don't wanna burden my friends because of how i feel.
i really want to stop feeling this way. i know it gets a tad depressing reading my blog. hahaha ! my apologies for it.
so you're gone and i'm haunted and i bet that you're just fine.
♥Sunday, September 20, 2009
Saturday, September 19, 2009
i thought that i will be fine,
mommy often say that i'm the kind who takes things up easily so i'll be able to put things down as simply.
i'm proven wrong.
i don't feel as if i'm in denial, but i really felt ok for the majority of last week.
i only cried all i could for one day and the rest were laughters, smiles and jumping around.
but i can feel it now,
it's coming back.
the sadness and loss are all coming in like a tsunami,
all at the same time, exclaiming : sorry, we're late! but we're here now, and we'll make you suffer!
i'm scared. really scared.
i need to know.
is this really the end? are you really not going to give us a go?
♥Saturday, September 19, 2009
Friday, September 18, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DARLING FANGHAN!
<3
♥Friday, September 18, 2009
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
BESTIE !!!!!(: says:
how u feeling hon? to cheer u up, i was supposed to write a 80words thing abt my fave person/fave event n i could only use 1 syllabus words n given my slow brain, i didn't managed to write much bt e starting sentence is:
A sweet girl who is full of cheer, as warm as the sun's bright ray. Small jokes are all it takes to make her laughs be heard from far and wide. She squeals, she jumps and whines a lot, she is like a child at times!
i <3 bestie much much! haha
♥Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Saturday, September 12, 2009
i have no idea whether i should feel happy and sad. haha !
sidenote: thanks to the darlings out there who commented on my blog! appreciate much ((: please keep them coming!
♥Saturday, September 12, 2009
this seems to be my only blog left which has the right format and everything. so maybe i'll move back here. haha ! i just wasted a day. only completed my Coms blog. tried doing my esl essay outline but the question's soooooo @%!@$%@!$ . ahha ! hopefully, i'll get it done by tmr morning or afternoon and the rest of the weekend can be focused on maths and socio.
school's been... i dont know. i just feel weird not being myself in uni now. the people are good, don't get me wrong. i feel that it's my problem. i was much more open and friendly and enthusiastic in JC . now, i'm like switching between an atomic bomb and a sweet. sometimes, explosive. other times, nice.maybe what people say are true. as we grow older, the walls around us grow tall with us too. now, i am more selective about the people i allow into my personal space. how am i to survive these three years.
all i want for birthday is you.
♥Saturday, September 12, 2009
