The Dreamer
She loves to dream. She likes wondering about what could have been, should have been, and may have been. She loves looking at the night-sky - who knows, a shooting star may just fly past one day and she will be able to make her wish. Her wish to be with you.
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
how do i truly feel?
a failure.
everytime i attempy to plan something,
it always fails.
people will come up to me to tell it that they cant go last minute due to blah blah blah reasons.
then what am i suppose to say?
i mean ,
everyone has their own free will.
who am i to force them and say : NO ! YOU'VE AGREED SO YOU HAVE TO COME !
i mean so what if they do eventually go anyway ?
is it really what they want?
why force someone into doing something they dont like?
i just wish that people who aren't going for events can well, take the initiative to tell me or at least bother telling me EARLIER?
i mean, some people dont even bothering replying and some only told me only when it was more or less confirmed.
seriously, mommy has told me to stop being itchy hands and stop organising for everyone.
and im always going : ok ! i'm going to stop planning anymore! but do i keep to it?
no i dont. i still go on as usual .
maybe i do deserve it.
i mean it's not anyone's fault if i have too high expectations in everyone right?
i guess i just really treasure everyone and am selfish in wanting to keep them together. afterall, everyone do make a difference to the outing whether they know it or not.
so maybe, it is my fault and no one else's then .
well, learnt my lesson.
♥Tuesday, June 09, 2009
