He wasn't ordinarily her type, but perhaps, she thought then , that wasn't such a bad thing. and where had her type got her anyway? A series of destructive, disappointing relationships in which Holly always seemed to be the one who got hurt. She told herself that it was okay to settle. That she could be grown up for once and make a grown up decision. That it would be enough. During her entire marriage, when Holly's thoughts turned to Tom, Tom was always there as the symbol of what might have been. He wasn't just the one that got away, the road not taken, the love she didn't choose. Tom was the one Holly knew deep down she could have been with. And so the loss is double. She is grieving for hr best friend, a man she loves, and she is grieving for the life she was never able to have.
Tom said," i know. Isn't that why you love me ?"
"Speaking of love," Holly felt a familiar flutter. Here it was again. Like a constant merry go round, she was sitting across the table, aged twenty five, looking at the face she knew better than anyone's in the world, her best friend, and all she could think of was what it would feel like to kiss him.
".... are you .... seeing anyone?" She fidgeted on her seat. Nervous.
" Why? Do you fancy me again?"
it had become a standing joke between them, this falling in and out of love with each other, but to Holly's embarrassment she found herself lost for words, a deep blush spreading across her face.
" Oh God," Tom was mortified." I didn't mean that. Oh God, Holly. If you's told me two months ago."
" Two months ago i was with Jake."
"I know." Tom smiled." i was horribly jealous."
" Well why didn't you say anything?"
" Because you were with Jake. What difference would it have made?"
" i might have dumped him for you."
i started driving lessons today. whoamygosh, it was such a heart attack. i love turning the wheels and turning corners though, it's pure fun, minus the stepping too hard on the gas pedal and forgetting to press and realise the clutch problem, i must say that it was a relatively okay lesson, wait till i get my license yo!!! (:
although, nobody dares to sit in my car currently.sigh.
this week, i daresay, isn't a good week for quite a number of people.
i hope next week will be a better one!
i'm rambling on and on because i have no idea what i'm writing, i recall looking through other people's blog and wondering how they can write so well(:
anyway, i'm gonna meet up for shopping with Fiona tomorrow followed by hanging out with Aqidah before going to Hougang to have dinner with Lionel and Patson ! WOOTS!!((:
Fiona introduced me to a really fun photo website and i got super obsessed with it. See how nice they come out to be(:
Indeed, there was an eclipse and your hormones rage, thank god~
