Monday, April 27, 2009
today ... i was sooo tired, i couldn't wake up in time to attend session .
so after mass, i went to at least say hi .
and wow.
god really has his ways!
they were doing a session on affirmation
and i woke up from feeing down.
because to god, i was special unique and priceless.
i do make a difference in people's lives!
thus, when i came out of session ,
i decided , to affirm the people around me !
i think i gave many people a heart attack when they suddenly recieved a message from me saying how good they are and what i love about them.
haha ! but it's all true .
the world is just too full of criticisms and unhappiness.
a little affirmation could just be the cure to that (:
♥Monday, April 27, 2009
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Sorry.
I wrote it out of anger.
Really sorry.
♥Thursday, April 23, 2009
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
first.
thanks so much my best friends!!
FAITH LEE
JEANNIE ONG
<3
serious.
i really feel very very lucky to have known you .
it's my honour to be both your best friend.
thanks for being there for me when i needed you two the most.
thanks for your encouraging words and behaviour.
both of you always treat me with such sincerity and genuinity that i know i can always be myself around you two and there is no need for pretence, masks or whatsoever.
you two accept me for who i am .
we might be different, yes.
in terms of behaviour, mindsets and everything .
but i want you two to know that .....
YOU TWO WERE, STILL AM AND WILL BE FOREVER MY BEST FRIENDS.I LOVE YOU GIRLS <3
p.s thanks for cleaning my tears up just now. and for the phone talks! i'm glad both of you found your prince charmings. looking forward to your happily ever afters !! i'll be the bridemaid, yes? (:
second,
thanks aqidah .
i know it's been really hard on you having to bear my ranting and venting and nonsense today .sorry.
thanks for helping me out last night though! really appreciated(:
third,
i'm going to confront you .
why?
because i'm left with no choice, no other alternative.
i'm not being a child throwing a tantrum , picking a fight .
please dont see me as an enemy .
i'm just trying to refrain from having more misunderstandings between the two of us .
i just want to clear the air, uphold my reputation and give you back your good reputation which should be yours, yes ?
please.
i'm scared too.
freaked out in fact.
and dreading what is ahead of me .
but.
i'm going to risk everything .
because i treasure you .
and i believe in you .
so don't let me down,
once again.
♥Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Monday, April 20, 2009
so yet another week has past and a new one is just starting.
i can't wait too go for holiday.
i just loves holidays.
all you do is sleep eat have fun.
plus, it takes you away from reality and all things in life which you want to put aside.
i wish i was born in a winter country.
best is if it's a country which snows.
even better if i meet my first love when the first snowflake falls and we will be pllaying together in the snow.
oh gosh, why am i such a hopeless romantic?
cause i know all these wouldn't happen.
so i should stop now, yes?
actually, i have no idea why i'm writing all these.
i just feel like i need to blog. but i didn't know what to blog about.
ahhhh! yet another crappy post-_-
ps. i love my blog song btw(:
♥Monday, April 20, 2009
Thursday, April 16, 2009
I've been reading Paulo Coelho's book " eleven minutes".
people, if you want to find a book, grab that book !
it's so inspiring and enlightening , leading you to much self discovery and making me nod and repeating many " ya ..... true..... right ! omg! why didn't i think of that! " yes yes ... i'm a deep thinker bimbo-_- i'm going to write down somethings in that book which i find totally touched me deep but ... not today ! ahah creating the .... suspennnnnssssseeee ! ahahha nah , actually it's cause i wanna read finish and then write down all in one shot. ahha !
anyway, i've been feeling soooo tired ! been rushing to complete some things and omg !!! my very own fairytale ! so happy with it ! sadly, i'll never see it again . sigh.... bye .... byeeeeee princess claudyyyyy ~ i'll miss you !!! and i hope someone treasures and treats you the right way and don't chuck you aside!! since you're in my possession now, i shall take many many photos of you in remembrance! i wish someone can write a fairytale for me . i'll be sooooo super ..... duper ..... touched((: especially if it's from my prince ~ *swoooons yet again. AHHAHAHAHAHA ! kidding.
anyway , here's a shoutout to these two people ! although i'm not sure if they'll read this ...
BOB !! life certainly is a rollar coaster ride for you . but hang in there! there's always a point where the ride ends and stops and stability and equilibrium re-enters you life ((:
LIONEL !! i know you're not having a good time in army... but know that you'll never be alone ! even if we're not there by your side physically, we'll always be a phonecall/ message away ((:
ps. FAITH, FANGHAN, PAULINE !!!! LATER LATER LATER !!!! SUSHI BUFFET !!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOTS !!!! CAN'T WAIT !!! WE'RE GONNA GONNA GONNNA ..... HAVE A ROCK AND ROLL TIME !! SO MUCH TO TELL YOU GIRLS !!!!(:
i'm sounding kind of high now i don't know why . must be due to fatigue. ahhaha ! see you guys later ! (:
♥Thursday, April 16, 2009
Monday, April 13, 2009
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Holy week's over.
this year, i must say has been one of my most meaningful holy week ever.
Cornerstone was assign to be in charge of Maundy Thursday and Reversal Stations Of The Cross session. Well, i did take away a lot this year. Thinking about next year, i wonder if Cornerstone is able to be as involved in Holy Week as this year, seeing how many of our guys are in army. So, Thank you God, for bringing me to Cornerstone this year, probably our last year for rather long time where we can participate so actively.
I'm going to miss our boys!!!!!! Come back more macho and all yo ~
I'm freaking out yet again at the lack of call from some organisations.
sigh.
please hurry call and end my anguish .
please please pretty please with sugar on top?
btw, thanks for sending me halfway home~
confuse all over again.
♥Monday, April 13, 2009
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Maundy's Thursday is tomorrow...
i'm assigned to play the song " Above All"
However, hearing Hubert's playing makes me feel soooo inferior.
He's like grade 0, yet he plays even better than me , a grade 8.
Certs, sometimes.... they don't mean a thing.
Attaining a cert doesn't mean that i am better or more superior to others.
we need to be humble (:
so pray for me , that i'll be able to play well for God and be an instrument his message can pass through from me to his people.
This period of time for me really sucks.
When people around me keeps telling me that they've been accepted, or have been shortlisted for an interview.... the more my anxiety increases.
and then, i'll feel so mean .
because i should be feeling happy that they got accepted or shortlisted.
but i know deep down inside me , how i wish that that person was me instead.
can't wait for my life to stabilize.
is this how it's all going to end?with us not talking anymore?
♥Wednesday, April 08, 2009
Monday, April 6, 2009
Everything happens for a reason.
a boy that is not drop dead gorgeous. neither is he cute.
there was something that was attractive about him though.
he spoke first, initial intention was to only ask a trivial question.
sidetracked, felt a connection as the trivial question led on to a long conversation.
it felt nice, it felt comfortable.
everything happens for a reason.
i shall serve fully with the right reasons.
♥Monday, April 06, 2009
Friday, April 3, 2009
He wasn't ordinarily her type, but perhaps, she thought then , that wasn't such a bad thing. and where had her type got her anyway? A series of destructive, disappointing relationships in which Holly always seemed to be the one who got hurt. She told herself that it was okay to settle. That she could be grown up for once and make a grown up decision. That it would be enough. During her entire marriage, when Holly's thoughts turned to Tom, Tom was always there as the symbol of what might have been. He wasn't just the one that got away, the road not taken, the love she didn't choose. Tom was the one Holly knew deep down she could have been with. And so the loss is double. She is grieving for hr best friend, a man she loves, and she is grieving for the life she was never able to have.
Tom said," i know. Isn't that why you love me ?"
"Speaking of love," Holly felt a familiar flutter. Here it was again. Like a constant merry go round, she was sitting across the table, aged twenty five, looking at the face she knew better than anyone's in the world, her best friend, and all she could think of was what it would feel like to kiss him.
".... are you .... seeing anyone?" She fidgeted on her seat. Nervous.
" Why? Do you fancy me again?"
it had become a standing joke between them, this falling in and out of love with each other, but to Holly's embarrassment she found herself lost for words, a deep blush spreading across her face.
" Oh God," Tom was mortified." I didn't mean that. Oh God, Holly. If you's told me two months ago."
" Two months ago i was with Jake."
"I know." Tom smiled." i was horribly jealous."
" Well why didn't you say anything?"
" Because you were with Jake. What difference would it have made?"
" i might have dumped him for you."
i started driving lessons today. whoamygosh, it was such a heart attack. i love turning the wheels and turning corners though, it's pure fun, minus the stepping too hard on the gas pedal and forgetting to press and realise the clutch problem, i must say that it was a relatively okay lesson, wait till i get my license yo!!! (:
although, nobody dares to sit in my car currently.sigh.
this week, i daresay, isn't a good week for quite a number of people.
i hope next week will be a better one!
i'm rambling on and on because i have no idea what i'm writing, i recall looking through other people's blog and wondering how they can write so well(:
anyway, i'm gonna meet up for shopping with Fiona tomorrow followed by hanging out with Aqidah before going to Hougang to have dinner with Lionel and Patson ! WOOTS!!((:
Fiona introduced me to a really fun photo website and i got super obsessed with it. See how nice they come out to be(:
Indeed, there was an eclipse and your hormones rage, thank god~
♥Friday, April 03, 2009
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
may there be an eclipse tonight and your homones
rage-change decisions, change decisions, change decisions~
♥Wednesday, April 01, 2009
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