Monday, March 30, 2009
It's late, and i know i should be sleeping instead of typing this tirade of ramblings.
however, i can't seem to fall in slumber and instead, this thought flashed across my mind..it amuses me how when we are able to get the things we desire, we start to take them for granted? and only when we find ourself in another situation that is much worst off do we then yearn back for the initial thing which we had taken for granted?
take for example, i had to sleepover at grandma's place last night as she was all alone at home, but ( call me a spoilt brat or anything-_-) i couldn't seem to get to sleep anyhow! because it was SUPER warm, and i felt really uncomfortable. At that moment,i seriously DESIRED my bed, my room, my house. i was thinking then: omg!! if im at home now, i could just crash right onto my bed and be asleep right now! but then look at now... what am i doing? i'm in my own house, my own room, sitting on my own bed typing all these and i'm doing everything else except sleep. which i really ought to be doing... so i was then thinking.. yes .. i do think quite a lot, the irony of life? we don't get what we want... so we desire.... but once we get what we desire.... we take them fo granted.... and this feeling only ends when we lose them ... so we desire again ... and then soon, eventually.. we'll start taking them for granted. and this mindless cycle keeps repeating itself. i feel quite like a genius to derive this logic myself really... but ... i have no idea why i'm typing all these. haha!
so anyway, i went to cut my hair today! and nope, i didn't go to my usual hairdresser.... because mommy wanted me to go under her Shiseido package where she'll buy $150 worth of products which entitles me to a free haircut by a stylist who specially flew in from Japan for just three days. So, anyway, all initial doubt and uncertainty immediately flew away when i saw the way my stylist went : SNIP SNIP SNIP with his scissors... and he was SOOOOOO NICE AND SOOOOOO SWEET! often repeating the words: aligatok! and Kawaii-Deska! and Thank You very Much! i have to say that it was by far my most polite and funniest hair cut experience, with me not understanding japanese and he not really understanding english, it's a wonder how he even managed to cut what i had requested. but still, he did a REALLY awesome job i must say for i REALLY REALLY love it alot, leaving only sadness in me when he finished cutting. why? well, because i was wondering next time when i need another haircut, WHO CAN I GO TO!!!!!*GASPS! i really want to go back to him ? but sadly, he'll be in japan )): i even contemplated flying over to Japan to find him in future and marry him if nobody wants me since i could at least get a nice hair cut everyday right ? ahhaha but i got scolded by my mom when i suggested that to her and she told me to banish that thought. yet she herself often say that i should marry a fruit seller so that she can have free fruits to eat everyday -_-
so anyway, here's my new haircut! i don't care if others find it ugly or whatever, i love it and that's all that matters!! (:
when are we going to end all this childishness and start talking to each other again, i wonder?
♥Monday, March 30, 2009
Thursday, March 26, 2009
SECOND
CHANCES
Tom became her best friend. When Daniel dumped Holly for Lisa- one of the bitchier girls in her class-Tom was the one who comforted Holly, who confessed that he had fancied Holly when they first met but that now he was glad that they were just friends, especially since he'd just started
going out with Isabelle.And of course Holly, who had gotten over Tom completely, found herself
developing a major crush on Tom again. Except by the time he and Isabelle split up, she found herself going out with Dom Parks and she and Tom drifted apart for a while- and by the time Holly and Tom rediscovered their friendship, A levels were looming and they both knew one another far too well for there to be anything between them other than friendship.
Holly remembers how Tom used to smile at her across the desk as they worked in the library. Sometimes she'd be buried in revision and she'd look up and catch Tom's eye and he'd grin; and even then, even when she was over her crush, no longer spent nights crying in her bed as she listened over and over again to the sond track for
Save the best for last. Even then she knew that whatever she and Tom had, it was special. and maybe at some point in the future they would find one another again.
Holly spreads photos out on the floor and starts to move them around. She pulls one from the pile. It's Tom and some girl. She had seen the photo and had demanded to have it because Tom looked so handsome, smiling next to the girl she hadn't liked. he looked almost model-like, and
Holly had been so proud of knowing him. Tom had cracked up laughing when Holly had said she was taking it. " I'm going to cut her out and stick me in instead," she had said with an evil glint, and Tom had shaken his head as if he didn't know what to do with Holly, which he didn't. She was, in turn, funny, delightful, warm, wise and insufferable, jealous , insecure and impossible. He loved her but didn't know how he could live with her. he loved her but wasn't in love with her. NOT TODAY, at least. She just was. Holly Mac. A fact of his life. Someone that would always be a part of him. As he would always be a part of her.
Ironic much? Wasted much ? Familiar much?
♥Thursday, March 26, 2009
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
so off he flies again ! yes, Mr Leo Nardo flew back to Indo yesterday again. Darlings Fiona and Aqidah, together with me went to the airport with the intention of surprising him and to send him off. Although we did take quite a few photos and i initially wanted to upload all of them onto this blog, i realised that if i wanted people to focus on what i want to say, the best way for them to actually READ my words is to just not have many photos for i know it's really tempting to just admire the photos and skip the reading part, hence, the one photo which i uploaded happens to be my favourite from yesterday as i think it portrays
natural happiness, just the way i want to remember my two favourite people in my JC life who helped in contributing to my best memories in SR-
LEO and
FIONAi remembered the first time i met them. i actually knew fiona before i got to know leo. i was still thinking : ohmygosh! how am i suppose to click with this girl? for in my mind, fiona was this really nice, and i mean... REALLY nice and friendly girl? but the first impression i got from her , note that it has changed though, was that albeit nice, she would be slightly boring and a goody two shoes? so i wasn't expecting me to be close to her at all. as for leo, my encounter with him was rather funny actually... because he had the good boy look and with his shirt neatly tucked in and short hair, he didn't really leave an impression on me initially. all i thought about him was: okaaaaayyyy...... this guy .... is ...hmmmm.... going to be Mr Nice guy BUT he's also going to be a NERD. and because we didn't really talk to each other at first, i put all thoughts of being close to him at the back of my head too.
HOWEVER, just like how life always deliver surprises to us, right now, i can confidently say that the two of them are the two blessings which god has granted me in my JC life.
Fiona turned out to be the one of the lovely people whom i grew really close to ?? she could tell if im unhappy or troubled and something in her .... just makes me trust her in everything i tell her and i could always rely on her to protect me . of course, gradually, i did tell her that i thought she was a bore and she got kinda offended but let me tell you, a bore is definitely not what Fiona Quek is. In fact, if you ask me now, she's one of the cutest blurest(yes, uh huh !), and the girl who brought me lots of joy and memories in school !Fun, Joy and laughter comes along when i'm around her. Her letters are always a source of motivation for me, to push me on and to give me support. with her, i know i can just be myself, apart from the shopping part though, cause it still IS stressful shopping with her haha ! but apart from all that, she's an angel God sent from above to watch over me (:
As for our dearest Mr Nardo, WHEW, he's the epitome of DONT JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER, as shown on the first day when i took the bus home with him. Somehow, i recall we ventured into the topic of relationships? and i was taken aback when he told me the number of times he dated. i was literally stunned into silence as it was totally not what i expected from him ? infact, it was the total opposite of what i thought of him ? the more i knew him , the more surprising things i realise about him. i dont' know why... but he ended up to be the one i quarrel, or rather, bicker with the most?? and the weirdest fact was that we will bicker about the most ridiculous things under the sun ? we would just bicker and bicker for hours until i feel totally drained and exasperated. at one time, i thought that there's something wrong between us... until i realise.. that maybe that is just the way we communicate.still, i somehow understand how he could have dated soooo many times, judging from how much even my mom loves him -_- and how charming he is towards other girls. note the word: OTHER. haha ! for now, everyone just pray that he'll be able to study locally so that everyone will get to see him more!! and so that he wont fall into the grasps of ____________________ (:
p.s i'm writing this cause i feel that i've been treating him rather badly? but, if
he ever reads this, oh gosh, his head is gonna swell up soooo much , he wont be able to walk out of the room-_- hahah ! alright , i see i can't help in being mean towards him even as i'm praising him-_-
people have asked me before why i like taking photos so much .... and it recently dawn upon me that not only do i like taking photos, i love giving photos and letters to people too. ssome people might think that it's due to my narcissistic nature, well.... maybe ??? haha ! but i think i just love giving these presents cause if you notice, photos portray memories and photos are usually taken when one feels happy ! as for letters, i think well, i do express myself much better in writing you see... so i guess that is why ? photos and letters bring a great amount of joy to me and everytime i recieve such presents, it'll light up my face with a beam?
just want to say,
FIONA QUEK!
LEO NARDO !
THANKS FOR COMING INTO MY LIFE(:
IM OPTIMISTIC ABOUT OUR FUTURE(:
♥Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Friday, March 13, 2009
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photos are from spending a day with the stoners at IKEA! it was real fun o !!
it's weird how we're so different yet connected by one similarity-GOD(:
thank you god, for letting me be part of this community !
anyway, was talking to bob and he made me think of many many issues.
sometimes, we face problems in our relationship with other people merely due to a breakdown in communication.so if there's anyone to be blame, the answer is... everyone ought to be blame in one way or another ! we may think that we explain ourselves very clearly, but we fail to realise that the other party isn't psychic and hence may not really know what we're trying to put across to them? my point is... sometimes, it may just be a mistake of pride coming first, it may be a simple mistake of overlooking some facts, but no matter what, i think that people shouldn't let these small trivial matters affect the relationship which took many years and hard work to build up ? so yeah, just my thoughts.
♥Friday, March 13, 2009
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
a love story ?
they weren't meant to be.
afterall, he did promise to bring another girl to this dinner as his date hasn't he ?
but, maybe it's fate, maybe it's just pure coincidence,
he and she turned up in rather matching outfits.
she didn't feel so, but others commented about it so she suppose they must be true?
anyway... he wasn't supppose to go with her.
however, due to geographical convenience, they ended up arriving together.
she thought that he'll go immediately to his date when they arrived at the hotel,
but surprisingly, he offered her his arm and ask her to hold onto it.
stunned, she silently pay heed although it was rather awkward.
he took really good care of her that night,
helping her to find her table which was sweet of him,
considering the crowd and the number of girls whom he could have helped, but he still remembered to help her without even helping his own date.
when they reached their table, he took his seat in an instant, but she and his initial date were standing around hesitantly, wondering who should be seated beside him as the seat to his other side was already occupied.
he saw that, and he hasten her to seat beside him, leaving his date to sit two seats away instead.
she felt really bad for his date... yet ... deep down inside, she knew that she was flattered that he treated her that way.
the food arrived.
this time, the girl seated at his other side took the food and placed it on his plate.
however, he did not really pay heed to it and turned to her instead posing this question : hey, would you like some food?
to which, the girl shyly said, and note that this girl is USUALLY NOT shy ...in fact, she was the outgoing sort, it confused her as to why she felt shy then. anyway, she replied him : uhhhh hmmmm okay ... and smiled at him .
he took the food from his plate, yes, the food which the other girl took for him and placed it on her plate instead.
throughout that whole night, they were like in a world of their own.
she doesn't know if he noticed it
but out of the other people at the same table, the two of them were seated the closest to each other.
she liked that he treated her so nicely.
like a .... princess.YES.PRINCESS.
he often use that term to tease her .
to which, she'll be angry as it implied taht she was spoilt and pampered.
but at this instant, she loved that term.
her wish that night .... was that the night would never end.
it was a magical night , one which would not repeat itself.
one which would always remain in her heart and mind as she reminisce about it wistfully with a faraway look in her eyes.
maybe she thought too much about it,
maybe she wasn't even on his mind,
maybe he was just being nice,
maybe he did like her then.
she doesn't know ...
for there were many maybes.
is that a love story ?
she hope that it is.
♥Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Monday, March 9, 2009
MAKE IT MUTUAL:
a quiet moment making my footprints on the sand.
a sweet feeling comes surrounding me.
it's delirious.
now that's a suger rush.
my heart is beating oh so fast,
i don't wanna rush but i wanna make it last.
there's no need to rush.
we can take our time.
let it go the natural way.
we begin as friends
and who knows what
where this could be taking me
in this nice cool breeze.
yes i am all at ease.
when i gush.
and this sweet feeling comes to me.
can't deny, can't lie, can't really face the truth.
and i wonder if you're feeling the same way too.
you know what i would like?
i'd like to get to know you more.make them mutual
boy, you know you wanna know me too.
this is how you make me feel.
when you're here,i feel your vibe,
and i hope i don't fall in too deep too fast.
you are not the type,
who'll rush this right,
and let it slip away.
well, i like your type,
caught up in this tide.
it's kinda silly but i'll say.
in this nice cool breeze.
yes i am all at ease.
when i gush.
and this sweet feeling comes to me.
can't deny, can't lie, can't really face the truth.
and i wonder if you're feeling the same way too.
in this nice cool breeze.
yes i am all at ease.
when i gush.
and this sweet feeling comes to me.
can't deny, can't lie, can't really face the truth.
and i wonder if you're feeling the same way too.
in this nice cool breeze.
yes i am all at ease.
when i gush.
and this sweet feeling comes to me.
can't deny, can't lie, can't really face the truth.
and i wonder if you're feeling the same way too.i hope you get what i'm trying to tell you when i send you this song someday, honey.
♥Monday, March 09, 2009
Sunday, March 8, 2009
so you're cold now,
i guess we dont stand a chance now, do we?
make it mutual.
♥Sunday, March 08, 2009
Thursday, March 5, 2009
so this time tomorrow, i would have recieve back my results.
let me remain strong, help me trust in you o lord.
that no matter what happens, i should just continue trusting you .
i've been blog hopping,
and it dawned upon me that even the people who appear the most playful, the most happy go lucky people.... they do have serious thought running through their minds too...
alright, it's quite a nonsense realisation but i don't know why i'm still amuse at that finding.
i really miss A01'08.
i miss classing with them.
i miss canteening/ cafe-ing with them.
i miss talking annd laughing with
fiona.
i miss bickering with
leo over the dumbest things possible.
i miss
aqidah for her presence.
i miss getting disturbed by
patson.
i miss being bimbotic with
shirlene.
i miss sharing life experiences with
charlotte.
i miss 'rivalling' with
mai.
i miss
lionel for his laughter.
i miss
steph for being steph.
i miss them the most.
they're still the best people i could ever have prayed for in my class(:
♥Thursday, March 05, 2009
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
i know i should thankful to God for all the blessings he has placed upon me.
i do, i do thank him for everything he has helped me with.
maybe, this is a test, a test he has to put me through to strengthen me up.
i've never been in such a situation before, which explains why i only slept at around the wee hours in the morning and wake up so early too.
why ... why do i have to know you .
i thought there was something between us.
we talked, we bonded, we clicked well.
and then .... you went to get yourself attached.
or rather, you went back to your old flame.
and YOU !
you really piss me off you know.
i remember nicole asking me how is it possible to be in a love hate relationship.
hating someone yet knowing you love him too.
well, i perfectly understood what she meant when she said that ?
why ! why didn't you tell me at that time !
don't you think it's unfair ?
why does the success of our could have been relationship fall in your hands?
i am so sad you have such little faith in us.
i know there are many obstacles, and well, we dont exactly live in harmony with each other? i daresay, we could even bicker about the littlest things?
but who ever said that love is easy ?
there are not many guys whom i'll accept,
you're one of the few whom i'll say yes to,
truthfully, i haven't establish the reason why.
but whoever said that love needs a reason ?
besides, i think that real love requires no reason at all
cause it means you fully accept the other party , flaws, strengths and all.
still, you didn't give us a shot.
will we have a chance in future?
♥Wednesday, March 04, 2009
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