these few days have been an overall roller coaster ride for me~
my mood went up and down like rapidly and like what some of my friends say, im like an....
atomic bomb, ready to explode anytime.
let me tell you a story,
it's open up to your interpretation.
there was once this girl, hmmm... let's just call her lucy.
and there was this guy.... let's call him..... mr. cool
anyway, when they first met,
lucy had thought that mr cool was a perfect gentlemen.....
nice, charming, always willing to give in and please the ladies.
little did she know that she would be one of them.
they started off as friends.....
constant messaging, 3 hours long phone talks,her most romantic experience and the list goes on.....
she knew that was was falling for him.... hard.
but she threw all caution aside and knew that she has already given him the key to her heart.
to add on to how significant that was, it WAS very significant for lucy had build up many walls around her heart to minimise any hurt that others might inflict on her.
gradually, mr cool filled up the spaces in her heart... slowly, unknowingly.....
till the extent that...... how her emotions will be for that day is dependant on how he treats her.
she mistook it for love, seeing how lacking she was at her own personal love experience.
afterall, he did offer to carry her things for her when they were heavy,
turn to her first in times of problems or even when there weren't problems,
he always gave in to her .... and will always do things for her.
naive. that was what lucy felt when she realise that it wasn't because he likes her...
because....... she realise...... he liked another girl then.
she knew.... because.... he told her.
it was a huge blow to her.
she cried oh so many days......
and wanted so badly to question him as to why he treated her so nicely when he didn't like her !
feeling down for many days, she tried to distance herself from mr cool.
as time past, they grew close again.
this time however, with both party learning more about each other.
lucy closed up her heart even more so.
although still friendly towards everyone, yet..... she rarely lets anyone have access to her heart and her personal emotions.
she witness the number of girls whom he like again and again.
although she did wonder at times what is wrong with her that he has never tried liking her once?
everytime he treats her nice, her caution will be up higher than ever.
slowly, the way they communicate also changed.
in a not so good way.
til the extent that she sometimes even loathe him for being such an irritant.
however, she was pleasantly surprise when he did something valuable for her one day.
it please her so, for it was rare of his character.
during an event where both of them went to together,
lucy dressed up.
even more than usual.
mr cool seemed to appreciate her and treat her special more than usual....
or so she thought.
wishful thinking..........
for he reverted back to his old self soon after....
she... did something...
which was unlike herself.
something....
she has never done before.
and once again....
the response she recieved hurt her...
badly.
it reminded her of the first blow which he dealt her with.
now, she's lost.
lost lost lost.
oh, would he not tell her what to do?
♥Monday, December 01, 2008
