Monday, January 28, 2008
alright .... i know fiona quek most probably wanna kill me now cause she's kinda sick having to hear this song oevr and over again ... haha !! but then i think it currently fits my mood ? so sorry hon ... maybe when im feeling better then i'll change into a much cheery song yea? ahha and sorry for not going school today ... shall rest well today and hurry roll back to school ya ? ahah
i just wasted my weekend speculating, anxiously awaiting for .... NOTHING. i wonder why we are suddenly not talking, its so sudden , its like, we could be having the time of our life one day yet suddenly turning so cold towards each other the next! i dont know whats happening nor why it is happening . only that , i wish that we'll always be happy in the company of each other((: and im sorry if i had offended you in one way or another. trust me, it was totally unintentional.
thats all i want to write for today, sorry for not attending church for two whole weeks, god. i was sick. shall attend church like a good girl this week (:
♥Monday, January 28, 2008
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
school was .... HETIC ? haha yes i think that's the word! i am still rather unwell and am hoping that my dearest miss riviera would let me excuse PE tomorrow? haha .
anyway,MR NARDO and i went for lantern making workshop today and it was ..... HILARIOUS? we both sucked at art and we were laughing throughout the whole session cause we'll screw something up one way or another? firstly, we didn't bring ANY materials at all.... so we went to buy the ang pows from the mama shop just outside school.. little did we realise that they're of different sizes? so in the end, our lattern looked kinda abnormal? but to give that guy some credit, he did like 90% of the work ? i just sat beside him helping him hold the scotch tape. haha ! but my art has all along been lousy so im sorry leo!!! ahah
anyway, i had a talk with aqidah tonight and this question ran across my mind, why do some people have SO MUCH confidence till the extent that it becomes OVER confident? whereas for others, they have so little confidence in themselves? like evn though they have the good qualities and all ? anyway aqidah, you're awesome girl ! so never doubt yourself. haha ! and even though we might grow closer or more distant in the future, know that i'll always be by your side hon (: i love. and just so you guys know who this gorgeous girl is, i shall present you guys ..... AQIDAH! haha
♥Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
haha after a LONG weekend of falling sick and being absent from school yesterday, I WENT BACK TODAY!! hahaha and i just want to thank the people who supported me during my ordeal throughout the weekend?i am feeling a tad better now thanks to you guys (: i wondered what got over me ... ahah ! now all i want to do is study hard and score! hopefully...... my heart desires that too. so these are the people whom i wanna thank and that i love you guys and that i miss you all!! ok, i realise that it sounds like a thank you speech... haha ! but who cares? as long as you all know that i love you ! haha
BESTIE HON! you were always there for me during my ups and downs... like seriously, ALL OF THEM !! i dont know which other girl is as lucky as i am to have such a bestie !!! i seriously love you hon!
faith lee! i know you're busy and all, thats why i didn't want to trouble and stuff, but know that im missing you. always.
goh shuxian!!! thanks for asking me out that day ... its as though we have telepathy or something? i was feeling so down when i recieve your message asking me out!!! my goodness.. and you immediately called upon knowing that i wasn't my right self! you're a dear friend... know that you would be a good catch and that your future bf is one lucky guy! haha
chan luo er!! you're like seriously this awesome girlfriend. i know you've been through a lot of crap but still albeit all that, you read my blog and came to ask me if all was alright . let me tell you, i DO think you're a really pretty and great girl.and i do appreciate everything. all the help and advice which you rendered to me. i'll be here for you too hon!
Noriko!!! OMG !!! you dont know just how much i miss you !!!! seriously....its uncountable... i miss having you around me knowing whenever im down despite me not saying anything. you always try your best to cheer me up no matter what and please know that you're one of my dearest friends (: please meet up soon!!
Shermaine!!! GOSH !! we haven't spoken in ages!!! im so surprise to read your tag but i felt sooo touched by it .... you're always there to support me and encourage me and for that, i thank you darl!!! my buttie ((: hahaha !! lets meet up soon too ya ? ahha missing you !
fiona QUEK!! hey hon!! you're... my cutest.. blurest ... and most un-clique-able friend.... but you know?? i can sense your protectiveness over me and your concern. i think you're really like an angel that god sent from above to guide over me in my junior college life? know that i'll always stand by you and that you'll definitely still be one of my dearest friends after we graduate!!!(:
aqidah sweetheart!!! you're like the SWEETEST friend i ever known... like seriously... everytime i talk to you or see you around you just bring a sweet smile to my lips and like what i've always said. have more confidence in yourself! you're a really really really ideal girl for ALL guys and you're seriously attractive. so never ever think that you're not. I LOVE YOU !
haha i know this post is random and all but i feel that you guys should know jsut how much i love you all ((: haha !! anyway, i've gotta go... i've taken my medicine and the room is spinning around me now .... my bed beckons to me ... ahha god ngith and sweet dreams people!!
♥Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Sunday, January 20, 2008
mind in a whirl.something is horribly wrong with me.i wonder if it is stress? if it is the doing of somebody?
i woke up at 3am yesterday morning upon receiving that message. i dont know why it affected me so much. i curled myself up and started sobbing. it went on and on and on. and i had never in my whole entire life felt this lonely or sad before.putting on a facade in front of everybody, pretending that i am this cheerful, happy go lucky girl, little do they know what is going on in this little mind of mine.my self esteem is currently down in the dumps. maybe im unlikable? maybe some people feel like bashing me up upon seeing me? some words which come out of people's mouth truly hurt despite them not knowing so, after all, they aren't the ones to have to listen to themselves talking!i once watched a show about a girl who is a mute. however, she said this "god gave us two ears and a mouth.what for? words that come out of the mouth may hurt people and sadden them, thus, having two ears and the inability to speak is fine by me. " isn't that true? therefore, i have always try to not hurt people with my words. harsh words are a very dangerous weapon.i believe that god gave us a mouth so as to be able to encourage the people around us and to praise people so as to brigten up their day. so why then , do people like to hurt others with words?
if you dont understand today's post, its alright. after all, didn't i say that my mind is in a whirl ?now, i shall carry on my facade and pretend that all is fine.
♥Sunday, January 20, 2008
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
EXHAUSTED. to even write this post. DUH .
♥Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Friday, January 11, 2008
sorry for the recent dead blog guys!! was away on holidays and when i came back, i had to handle the chaos of school therefore delaying this new entry. my apologies. haha anyway... my holidays was .... well.... interesting and unpredictable,i guess should be the word to describe it best. there were so many changes being made last minute such as the days we'll arrive in the next country, the hotel arrangements and so on. oh! in case you guys are feeling confused, my holiday trip this time was kinda around the world? haha my first destination being DUBAI, which is in the middle east.fyi, they have the MOST BEAUTIFUL HOTELS i have ever seen in my whole entire life.do you know? they actually have a hotel which is made of PURELY REAL GENUINE GOLD!! haha so anyway, we had a great time there! so anyway, we then flew our next destination, SHENZHEN!! and oh my, dont they have the best shopping ever !! CALLING OUT TO MY GIRLFRIENDS!!! next shopping destination we shall go to -SHENXHEN!!! everything there is sooooo cheap !!! i bought like what... 20 odd dresses there? haha and then ... we spend new year there and on the 2nd, we went to HONGKONG!!! they have the best CHARSIEW rice there.. yum yum!! haha
well, during my holiday, i truly experience the meaning of what they mean by " THE POWER OF LANGUAGE" seriously !!! let me tell you guys.... while in singapore.... everytime i go shopping with mommy and she happen to pick out this really ... mmm.... unsuitable dress for herself and asks for my opinion with the sales girl just beside us, of course i cant just say outright that it look awful right ? DUH ??? but guess what??? I CAN FREELY SPEAK OUT MY THOUGHTS WHILE ON HOLIDAY !!!!let me explain, while in Dubai, since they dont understnand chinese, hence, everytime mommy asks for my opinion, all i have to do is to speak in mandarin and they wont understand!!! likewise for shenzhen, during my stay there, since they dont understand english, everytime i have something bad to say, all i have to do is to say it in english and they dont understand a word of it !!! hahahaa ..... the power of language. so now people, you know what to do when you're stress and ready to vent out all your anger yet do not want to offend the people around you ? GO ABROAD where they dont understand you !!! hahaha
anw, i just want to say that while i was away, i had missed you guys: BESTIE !!! FAITH, PHYLLIS, SHUXIAN, FIONA, LEO, PATSON, AQIDAH and still many more which i've not mentioned above due to the lack of time.anyway, enjoy the photos which i've put up .
loving you everyday,
Claudia
♥Friday, January 11, 2008
